I've had this post in 'draft' for a week but have been hesitant to post it. Every time I read it to start editing, it sounded dramatic and attention seeking. Now anyone who knows me knows that I am both those things but I am also hyper-aware, so try very hard to be on the endearing side where people see me as adorably needy and theatrical (as opposed to unbearable). This is an important thing for me to share so I didn't want it to be my groomed version or sound contrived. The only way I could get my story out was to have some liquid courage, type and post without editing. Please excuse typos, grammatical errors and other mistakes.
A few days ago, the Brave Girl's Club email arrived to my inbox with this message:
What if there are things that you have lived through or experiences that you have had, or knowledge that you have earned or wisdom that has become a part of you that you could share…and that IN THAT SHARING, saved a part of someone who needed your exact story to make it through another day?
Please don’t hide anymore. Please let any shame go. Please do not be afraid. Please know that who you are is beautiful and true and that every piece of what you are made of can have a beautiful and divine purpose when you don’t keep it hidden away.
All that you have lived through makes you the beautiful, complex, interesting and wonderful girl that you are today. Someday you will even understand why it had to happen the way it happened…..but for now, embrace it, share it….and keep living the story of your life. Live it all the way.
After I read it, I knew what I needed to do. I needed to post this in the least edited form I could. So here we go...